no ordinary lifetime

Are other wives feels like I feel? Doing something to ease our husband life yet never get appreciation? Well today he went to visit his colleague who had just past away. It feels like I'm being so selfish if I told him not to go just because I don't want to feel lonely. 5 hours he left me. I change our bedsheets prepare our meals for work, washed our clothes and hang it. Even I'm not well, I did everything.  Then when the night came, I just wanted to eat my blueberry cheese tart that I'm very looking forward to enjoy it.  Since he is my husband. I always share my food with him. Everything.  Always. But this time, he really broke my heart when I said to take a bit but he bite it like he owns it.  How could he did this to me :( I'm tired and very sad. I'm sleepless also because of him. Then he did this. He said sorry. Which I can't accept his apology because I feels like he said it so I won't be mad not because he meant it. You know? This happened so many ...